Carolyn Filla

CarolynI started on the journey of self-discovery and self-love about two years before I began working with Vanessa. And I made big strides by following the guidelines in Louise Hay’s “You Can Heal Your Life,” but many times over, I found myself hitting a plateau that included both the physical and mental/emotional aspects of my life.

I thought that the majority of negative thoughts I was thinking about myself were coming from the physical, so that’s what I worked on the most. I lost weight, and then worked on changing my thoughts to reflect my new body. But I still never felt truly happy and still didn’t believe I was good enough because I wasn’t a size 0 and didn’t have significant other in my life. Weight came and went, and I’d be really good at thinking positively for a couple weeks, but then I’d start nagging at myself again.

It wasn’t until I started working with Vanessa that I realized there were thoughts and experiences so engrained in my mind from childhood and that they were negatively affecting my energy and preventing my physiology from changing.

Vanessa helped me to dig deep and think about where it all could have started.

And once that became clear, it was a lot easier to focus on forgiveness and the areas I needed to work on, instead of just telling myself to be happy and confident.

Vanessa helped me discover different ways to Vibe High. I learned how to meditate and talk to the ego and say that I CHOOSE to think differently and attract the positive, instead of living in a place of negativity with constant damaging self-talk. And with Vanessa’s help, I have become so aware of my thoughts and their impact on my physical life that I always know when I start to feel “off” it is time to reconnect with Vanessa.

Carolyn Filla, Graduate Student